Notes - 2026 / Part 1 I have always been fascinated by ideas, systems, identities and the possibility that something fictional can slowly become real. I grew up in Latvia during a strange transition period. The country still felt partially isolated from the outside world, and many realities, identities and ideologies existed simultaneously. Soviet mentality, Western capitalism, religion, criminal culture, underground music scenes, imported fantasies and early internet myths all mixed together. Because information was fragmented and incomplete, people often imagined worlds before fully understanding them. Entire identities, aesthetics and belief systems formed around partial glimpses of culture coming from elsewhere. That atmosphere fascinated me deeply. I was never interested in belonging to only one world. In my youth there was a huge subculture boom. Goths, industrials, hip-hop heads, punks, metalheads, street gangs, alternative scenes. Most people chose one identity and defended it almost like a religion. I did the opposite. I moved constantly between different scenes, aesthetics and realities. I was simultaneously involved in hip-hop, industrial, noise and alternative culture. I created many different music projects, often in completely different genres and subcultures. Because of that, I constantly changed appearance, behavior and identity. Sometimes I looked like a hip-hop artist. Other times like an industrial noise musician. I often intentionally played against the expectations of each scene while still temporarily belonging to it. At one point I also became fascinated by post-Soviet street culture - the gopnik / urla environments that existed across Eastern Europe and Russia. I strongly disliked many aspects of those worlds, but that tension itself fascinated me. I became curious about their mentality, aesthetics and internal logic, and temporarily entered those environments almost like an explorer studying a hostile system from the inside. I created music and lyrics that reflected their worldview while simultaneously standing outside of it. I even built an online guide documenting bars and locations connected to that culture - almost like a Michelin Guide for dangerous post-Soviet environments. Looking back, it feels less like participation and more like mapping a parallel social reality. Some of those environments were aggressive, criminal and genuinely dangerous. I belonged everywhere and nowhere at the same time. While many people chose one identity and spent years reinforcing it, I preferred moving between systems and temporarily living inside different realities. I never wanted to become one fixed thing forever. At one point I became deeply involved in noise and industrial music. I was not interested in traditional musicianship. I liked raw sound, distortion, white noise and anti-music. Later rhythm slowly entered the noise. Then breakcore. Then anarcho hip-hop. Looking back, I think I was never truly interested in sound itself. I was interested in concepts, worlds and perspectives. The same thing later happened with startups. Ever since childhood I loved business ideas. I constantly imagined companies, products and future inventions. I never worked traditional jobs. I always built projects, startups or client work. But over time I noticed something strange. When brainstorming startup ideas, my mind naturally generated absurd concepts. Not because I wanted to make jokes. Because my brain automatically filtered ideas through abstraction, contradiction and conceptual thinking. Most startup founders immediately remove these ideas because they are impractical. I became fascinated by them. Some ideas were economically terrible, but conceptually beautiful. I realized that many of these projects deserved to exist even if they would never become successful businesses. That realization eventually became Absurd.website. Absurd.website exists because some ideas can only survive if they are treated as art instead of practical business. Before Absurd.website I had another idea: creating a book with thousands of strange business ideas. But eventually I realized something important: A landing page is stronger than a sentence in a book. Even a tiny MVP creates a different type of reality. I have always been an MVP person. Long before “ship fast” became startup culture language, I already worked that way. I never cared much about perfection. I wanted to express the idea as quickly as possible and see it exist in the real world. That mentality heavily shaped Absurd.website. Many projects are intentionally imperfect because the concept itself matters more than polish. The story matters more than execution. I remember being surprised when I first learned that film directors are often considered more important than screenwriters. To me the core always lived inside the idea itself. Execution was simply the delivery mechanism. Even today I still think concepts are more important than execution. My mind constantly moves between worlds that normally reject each other. One of my brothers is strongly capitalist and business-oriented. Another is deeply anti-capitalist and anarchistic. I somehow absorbed both realities at the same time. During the day I built startups and thought about products, systems and money. At night I performed anarchistic hip-hop and noise music criticizing capitalism and consumerism. I never felt this contradiction needed to be resolved. I liked existing inside the tension. That same tension exists inside Absurd.website. I do not see the projects as protests or ideological statements. I see them as conceptual possibilities. I do not create projects because I want to convince people to believe something. I create them because I want to explore what happens when an idea becomes temporarily real. I can create a project that supports weapon culture. Then another that argues for peace. I am not trying to become these ideologies. I am exploring perspectives. I think I have always been more interested in understanding systems than belonging to them. The same applies to religion. I grew up with strong Christian influence from my grandparents. I believed in God, but I was always skeptical of the human intermediaries built around belief. At the same time, I became fascinated by the immense realities people can construct from shared ideas. Religions create architecture, rituals, fashion, books, laws, symbols and identities. Entire civilizations emerge from shared beliefs. That fascinated me deeply, even though I could never fully surrender myself to any ideology or system. I always preferred standing slightly outside of them while still entering them, exploring them, and temporarily living inside their logic. In some strange way, I think I am doing something similar with Absurd.website. Not creating a religion - but creating a parallel conceptual system that slowly accumulates reality through repetition, structure and participation. I have always loved science fiction ideas, but strangely I rarely enjoyed science fiction movies. The stories themselves often felt less interesting than the systems behind them. What fascinated me was the possibility space - future inventions, strange structures, new ways humans could live. That is also how I approach projects. I am interested in opening conceptual territory. Sometimes the projects are useful. Sometimes completely unnecessary. Sometimes impossible. Sometimes absurd. But all of them ask the same question: “What if this existed?” I think that is the core of my work. Not parody. Not protest. Not traditional business. Exploration. I like discovering conceptual territories the same way exploration games slowly reveal hidden parts of a map. Absurd.website is my way of exploring those hidden territories through startups, products, systems, marketplaces, games and internet businesses. Sometimes I wonder if other people can fully see what I see inside these projects. I had the same feeling years ago while making noise music. Most people heard meaningless noise. But occasionally someone understood the frequency behind it. That feeling still exists. Thousands of positive comments and users across the more practical startup and business projects I built in parallel never affected me the same way as a single message from someone who truly understood Absurd.website. That feeling is very rare. And maybe that is why I continue.